July 19, 2009


Yet again its been a while since I updated previously, shocking? Naaaaah =)

Summer finally hit, pretty late though but I'm not complaining since it'll hopefully breeze through September.. One thing that might be typically harder this year is Ramadan (for those of you who aren't sure what that is, that's the whole month in which we Muslims fast, how exciting!) Summer feels a little boring this year around, though I have manymany things to do which of course as I am.. procrastinating.. Mostly to do with College shiiiiiiiit. That placement test yeah, i've been meaning to get to it along with transferring my damn transcript.

Someone very important to me, someone that gives me meaning to my life finally confessed to me that they don't understand me. For a year we've been together, and yet he still does not understand me, not that many people do so I cant blame him. But I have a quick question, how do you change the way you think? Your thoughts, Your feelings, the emotions that take over your mind. I was told.. "Instead of you controlling your mind, your mind controls you" true story at times I do think my mind controls everything, yeah I'm suppose to be the one control everything expect feelings that rush through my body though it might be hard. ;( When it comes down to others vs. others I think positive, tell them to think positive, look at things a little differently but lately i've realized if I were in there position, would I think positively? No.. This should have been in my new year resolution or something lol. Having a brighter sense in thought. I get where he's completely coming from because I bared these feelings, these types of thoughts for years without putting any recognition into it of what it might do to the people around me, especially the ones that truly mean a lot to me. I bet more than half of you guys are confused considering the fact that you dont know me, but all in all since I cant help myself but ramble off, "My name is Erin Nowrose and I can't help myself from thinking negatively." =D. I'll write more jibberish about this later, for now thats all.

AHHH! another poke on the ass.. gotta get my damn PERMIT MOM: How does a long island girl NOT have a permit and she's almost 18! DAMN IT. lol